#1

drank too much yesterday and got in a fight with e. blegh. we’ve made up but there are a few things i need to be cognizant of and i’m writing them down to make them more real.

stop acting like a mom. treat him like an adult. trust that he’ll figure it out even though it’s not on my time table. realize there is only so much I can do to help.

keep my urge of wanting to walk away when things get hard under wraps. so many people can’t walk away from their situations and they learn to deal with them, like normal, mentally healthy, unspoiled adults.

tell people if i want or need support. admitting that to myself though is already hard enough, but i have to work on letting my partner know and understand. people can’t read minds. (but they can read blogs i suppose…) 

don’t let that inner child, scared of attachment/easier to be alone, take over