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ok, so much for writing every day. travelling got in the way.
i’ve never felt so behind with work, feels like i’m drowing in it. however, i have a strong urge not to work on the weekends or evenings anymore even though i know i should. something in me tells me i should be doing something more fulfilling with my time. not that that is happening much either. need to cut back on the socialness. refocus on doing something. but you also can’t juggle too many things at once. so one thing at a time.
iowa. nice town we’re in right now. think this is the true meaning of surburbia — what arcade fire sings about. even in the bay, the burbs are much more robust and close enough to the bustling city. it’s quiet out here, peaceful. fields for days. clean, modern. cookie cutter, but even so, not as cookie cutter as some bay area neighborhoods. went to a sprint car race and my race became very apparent for the first time in a long while. i was the only asian person i saw at a pretty big event, ernest the only with big hair. but it didn’t really matter much.
been hanging out with an 11 yo, pretty fun at this age. i was let into a secret club, was shown a book of magic, made a ‘horror movie’ in which most of the sound track is just of us laughing, and we started a shell and rock collection. good kid. kind of makes me wish i had done more of this with YC, but it was neither the time nor the brain space.
