Feeling demotivated to do things this week. Just really want to lay around and do nothing, but even doing nothing sounds blegh.
There are so many social pressures along with my own ego that make me want to do something more with my life. Not even more, just something different. But what?! In the end, will any of it really matter anyway? It’s by from day-to-day? We trick ourselves into feeling something, into telling ourselves that our lives have meaning. Even the search for meaning has meaning.
Ego makes it so you want to do something in life and leave a mark, but really does it matter if you do or not? I can’t find the motivation in myself to try to.
Watching Blue Planet II – should I be grateful that I don’t have to try so hard to keep myself alive? Should I be thankful that.