got up pretty early today. need to continue writing to mom even though she’s not here. lots of random stuff to do, it’s kind of crazy how much work gets put into creating a space the sheer work alone makes me want to be a homebody, to stay home and utilize it. and really, home can be just that — don’t have to go far or to a cafe to get some thoughts down. i sound like a g-ma lol
hm, coffee is good today — i’ve been putting too much water. :\
i listened to Dune, finished it. really like it — production was great (audio).
putting this down here so it might become more of a reality, going back to yoga! will probably get sick from it, guess it’s not the end of the world. better than feeling stiff and sluggish.
going to write to my dad, find some common ground somewhere, religion has it’s good parts and i just need to parse them out. i want him to feel heard and seen. perhaps it’ll make him feel less lonely.
so, i’ve been kind of obsessed about when i’m going to get this couch. but i don’t think it’s because i’m materialistic, ‘ocd’ maybe. just want it done. not sure how people spend their whole lives buying more all the time, nesting. we spend so much of our time prepping for life that we don’t really live it. listened to some joseph goldstein the other day — a piece about not always being in the past, not being in the future, but even not being obsessed with the present. just be and it really resonated.