“hobbies for effed up people (R)”
listening to the new arcade fire album, so GOOD — particularly in the context of amusing ourselves to death. a lot of themes of the modern age (and mentions of television) and how we are all lost and anxious, the album is comforting in a woody allen-esque way. it makes me feel like someone out there gets it and can put it into artistic form that is emotionally digestible. sitting in this room, i felt a clarity, maybe my meditation is coming into fruition. the bubble of my mind, yet another bubble. rabbit hole, plastic soul.
i also recently made the decision not to pursue psychedelics, it may sound rigid, but it is actually in order to keep my mind open. i feel like i’m on a good path right now in terms of where my mind is going, i don’t feel the need or want to change or alter it (i’ve been doing this all my life), i want to see where i take myself. slow & steady. finally learning grass isn’t always greener. and just me is enough. <3
fake plastic rubber plant